Sunday, December 13, 2015


WHAT HAPPENS TO FORMER PORN STARS?I was a porn star in the 80's. I starred in Throat: 12 Years After, which was the sequel to the original Deep Throat. I also appeared in Flashpants and Piggy's, not to mention dozens of layouts in adult magazines.I found that the porn industry was composed of nothing but lost souls--all yearning for the love and attention that they never received as children. On every set, there was a pervasive cloud of sad darkness hovering over the entire production.The sex industry exploits wounded hearts. Every woman I met while working in that business--whether dancing, modeling, or acting--possessed a wounded heart. All had experienced abusive situations in their childhood which resulted in a skewed view of their own sexuality and value. Certainly, no woman with a healthy dose of self-esteem would degrade themselves by exposing their bodies and having sex on camera. I was the only porn actress I knew who didn't use cocaine. The other women told me they used in order to numb themselves from the humiliating reality.I walked away from the money and fame (well, on a porn star level, anyway) because I knew it was an evil, destructive business. For more about my life as Michelle Maren, visit